Welcoming My First Baby During the Covid-19 Pandemic
M.M.'s Brand Editor had her daughter on March 5, as the world went into lockdown. Here, she shares what it’s like to care for a newborn in the midst of a pandemic.
“In a very short amount of time, Covid-19 has changed so much about being pregnant, giving birth, and becoming a parent.”
“Thankfully, I find this baby completely intoxicating, and taking care of her is a respite from the gruesome headlines and infuriating politics of this moment.”
I anticipated that becoming a mother would change my whole world. I anticipated that certain things, like my social life, personal space, and the ability to wear clothes not covered in spit-up would become less of a concern. I anticipated that I’d be flooded with a new kind of love—a love so overpowering that it would dwarf any previous use of the word itself. I anticipated that some days I would grieve the loss of the life I had before. I even anticipated that some days I would feel angry for bringing something so vulnerable into the world, and with it, creating something so vulnerable in myself. What I could not have anticipated was that, at the exact same time I was becoming a mother and irrevocably changing my entire world, the larger world would be in the midst of a pandemic, and thus forever changing too. But navigating new motherhood during Covid-19 means navigating a new reality that is uncertain above all else, and in order to be a good mother for Simone, I have to be okay with that. In order to protect her, to nurture and nourish her, I need to embrace the stillness, the white noise, and whatever comes next—especially if it’s just another beautiful morning together.